In the first few days following the wedding, I watched my flowers go from bright and cheerful, blooming, to drooping, dying, drying up. That was really hard to see. I loved my flowers. I didn't want them to ever die. I felt like a part of me would die if they died and weren't beautiful anymore. So I pulled all of the petals off and put them in my food dehydrator and turned them into potpourri. I am very pleased with the outcome, they are still very beautiful and full of color in this state just dry!
Everyone at work all week said I seemed pretty down last week. I am! I am so incredibly sad that the wedding is over! Yes, I am very happy and made the absolute right decision, but that was the single most amazing day of my entire life, and it's the only time I will ever live that day. I cried when I was up on the altar and then the rest of the day flew by. We have a video that we took, it's not put together yet, but every time I see parts of it, I start crying again! It was such an overwhelmingly emotional day.
I just googled Post-Wedding depression and found out I'm not alone. Some brides get depressed because they spent so much of their time planning it and now that it's over, they feel like they have nothing to do. That's only partly true for me... yes I spent a lot of time planning, it was stressful, but it was so fun, and it was so awesome to see all the hours and hours of planning come together on our wedding day. Some brides get depressed because they think that they have to fall into a mundane drab life after the wedding is over. That is absolutely not the case for me. I am looking forward to the rest of our lives, all the excitement and such, but I just can't see a day topping our wedding day in mans of fun and emotions.
I mean, really, so many people together... it won't happen again. All of our closest friends were here, our families, etc. It might sound like an easy thing, just calling up your friend and hanging out, but for me it's nearly impossible. I had so many people come 850 miles to come to our wedding and take part of it. Seeing them leave was so incredibly hard.
I'm trying really hard to stay positive but the fact that it's all over is consuming me. Nick and I are so happy and I love the way we have been with each other but I am pretty sure he feels some of my same emotions about being sad that the day is over.
We couldn't have asked for a more amazing day. We can't stop talking about it. I sincerely hope that all of my friends enjoy a day much like ours was, someday. No one deserves drama on their wedding day and I thank my lucky stars that we didn't.
At the Belize Zoo they have raised an orphaned jaguar named Junior. He's 11 months old, and still very close to the zoo manager. In this video, we're all within a cage inside of Junior's enclosure, and Sharon Matola the founder of the zoo gets him to roll over for us. Afterwards, he climbed on top of the cage and gave kisses to all of us. Being licked by a jaguar tongue? Awesome.
It's all over!!!
Everyone mostly got in on Thursday and on Thursday afternoon we went to the Miller Brewery tour with my dad, stepmom, bridesmaid Kristen, her boyfriend and her mom, Nick, Me, my aunt Lori and her boyfriend Doug and my brother and his girlfriend, Kelly. After that, we went to my favorite restaurant, Mo's Irish Pub in Wauwatosa. We came back to Nick and I's house and everyone hang out for a bit, then left, then finally at around 10:30 Erika and Rachel got here from the airport. We drank a bit and then went to a Mexican restaurant around 12:00am and I had some nachos, then we came home and went to bed.
In the morning on Friday we woke up and Nick started printing the programs finally. I went to get a manicure, then stopped and got cards for our parents and a few more gifts from my flowergirls. We came home and I threw together a pasta salad for that night at the rehearsal dinner bbq and then we packed up the car and headed to the reception site to drop stuff off and see how it was going. It was messy in there so I was a little worried to be honest!
We left there and went to the church, well, tried to get to the church but like every road was closed! Finally we figured out how to get to it and we went in and had the wedding rehearsal. Our moms were crying their eyes out but I was still cool as a cucumber and I think I wasn't really taking it all that seriously!
When all that was over, they all headed to the park where the Rehearsal
BBQ was being held and Nick and I ran home to go get all the food and
stuff
for it. We finally got there and everyone was waiting (im)patiently for
the booze and food 
We had a really good time and ate lots of yummy food that me, my mom, and Nick's mom slaved over
When we left there, me, Nick, Damian, Adam, Jason, Erika and Rachel all came back to Nick and I's house and then we had a brilliant idea to go to the bar across the street. We girls stayed until about 11:15 and then headed to the hotel to check into the whirlpool suite. The guys ended up staying out until like 1:30AM! They were supposed to golf in the morning but ended up not going because of staying out so late, I think.
I woke up yesterday morning at about 7:30AM and immediately thought about how much I'd like to go back to sleep, but I knew I was too excited to even try, so I got up at the hotel, showered, and headed out to go pick up one of my bridesmaids to get our hair done. I got on the highway at about 8:30AM and the traffic was HORRENDOUS! I went about 4 miles in 45 minutes so I was super irritated. Finally got to Kristen's hotel and we booked it down to the salon. Kelly, my hairdresser started working on me almost immediately and I didn't leave until 11:45AM even though our limo was supposed to leave from my mom's at 12:15! I made it just in time to fix up my makeup and eat some Subway, hop on the limo with my family and head to the church. And guess what? I didn't forget anything!
We got there and our photographers were waiting for me to step out of the limo. I gave them both a hug (we are friends now and I'll be working with them after the honeymoon) and we went in so I could get my dress on. By this time it was 1:30 and I was supposed to meet Nick out back for private pictures at 2:00, but then the church's wedding coordinator asked if we could move it to 1:45, so I was rushing!!
Meeting him out back was such a good idea and so overwhelming. He looked great and he almost started crying when he saw me. We were so giddy and happy and we got some great pictures by the lake. After about 15 minutes we went our separate ways again and waited for the ceremony to start at 3:00.
The Ceremony was beautiful. There weren't as many people there as I'd have liked there to be but that's ok, it wasn't about them it was about us!
I refrained from crying almost the whole time, until we were putting our rings on each other's fingers. At that point, I totally lost it and was practically sobbing and laughing from joy up on the Alter. The entire church started crying when I started crying. It was so overwhelming.
Fast forward, we're married, and us and the wedding party is getting in our KICK ASS Limo Bus to go to the recception. The thing was hooked up! Tons of subs and a great soundsystem. A huge LCD TV in the back, and we had a cooler full of beer and champagne. We had so much fun that I didn't want to leave once we got to the reception.
When we got there, we quickly ran in and dropped our stuff off at the head table, and I was completely blown away at how gorgeous it was inside. It was amazing!!! All of my months of planning really paid off. Our flowers were amazing and the centerpieces were amazing. The venue was gorgeous! I can't want to show pictures!
We went out on the golf course in carts by 2s and took pictures with the wedding party. We came back in and cut our cake, ate, and our parents and best man and my maid of honor and best friend gave speeches.
They all made me cry. Especially my dad's. At one point he goes "Now I want to talk to the ladies in here. I want you to realize that Nick is a married man and those of you who once may have had keys to his house should return them now". I had no idea what he meant but all the sudden about 20 women from all over the room got up and dropped a key off to me. I was laughing so hard!!!!! He was hilarious! good planning! Then at the end of his speech he told me he'll always be there for me and I completely started crying.
So we ate, visited tables, started the Grand March and all of the
dancing, and holy cow, let me tell you, when you have a wedding, you do
not really
get to take part in it! We were so busy being dragged this way and that
to have pictures taken... plus I felt like a celebrity, EVERYONE wanted
their
picture taken with me! All the sudden it was 11:00 and half of the
people were gone and I could finally enjoy a beer. or two or three
At midnight we had our last dance and then the wedding party that was
leftover and their dates and Nick and I all climbed back into the limo
bus and
went to a bar. Which was funny and cool. I got a lot of congrats!'s and
a free beer
I fell alseep on the way back to the hotel from the bar and I was really starting to feel sick (I forgot to mention that I had woken up in the morning with a sore throat that progressively got worse throughout the day but didn't ruin my day!) I know I have a bad sinus infection now but I don't care....
That was the best day of our lives! So far!
And there was ZERO drama!
but one thing I was majorly disappointed is that we had a table that
was supposed to have 9 people on it and only 4 showed up. It looked
stupid and
these 5 people who didn't show up didn't even tell us they weren't
coming so we paid $150 dollars in wasted food to not feed those 5
people. 
Other than that there were only about 2 other people who didn't show so it
wasn't too bad. But still. sucks.
Can you believe it?? Me getting married? Today went really well :)
I'm the most cool-as-a-cucumber bride ever. I haven't had an ounce of nervousness at all. It's like it's not even happening, hehe
Well since I am pretty much almost 100% against Locks of Love because they sell their hairpieces, I am really happy and teary-eyed at finding this company that doesn't sell their hairpieces but actually donates their time and donated hair to kids at no charge who need wigs!! That's awesome and in my opinion, that's the way it oughta be done; not through a company that banks tons of money selling the unused donated hair to companies like Clairol, and not only that, makes the recipients pay for it (on a sliding scale, but still, seriously). ugh don't get me started, sorry!
I just thought I'd share it.
http://www.wigsforkids.org
You can donate your hair or even make monetary donations. Since I can't donate my hair (i don't have enough) I will definitely be donating some money to help them and their wonderful cause.
I found it on Dominique Moceanu's blog.
Biggest Tiffany box I've ever seen
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I've decided to return to Vox. Maybe a bad idea, because I can hardly keep my blog updated.. But I'll make an effort to find something to write about. Because I like Vox. A lot. A few of you should also write more often (Katie! Jaime!).
So, what's going on with me?
I went back to Germany for three weeks at the end of June. It’s getting weirder every time. I still think of it as ‘home’, but I guess that has more to do with me being so far away than actual attachment to the country. Bill Bryson wrote, “Nothing makes you feel more like a native of your home country than being abroad” - and it’s so true. I’ll always be the German girl here. Over here, it’s a very big part of what defines me as a person. But as foreign as I am here, now it’s what I know and what I’m comfortable with. It’s a shock to come back to what you’re supposed to be so familiar with and have it feel so strange. It’s a very unsettling feeling indeed. I guess I just have to come to terms with the fact that I’ll always be torn between both countries. And in the end, home is where the heart is.
I'm busy with school, but excited (and scared) to be a 'real' Graphic Designer soon. I graduate in December, which is less than 5 months away. Things are looking good though. I'm currently trying to pull together all the artwork I've done over the last 2 years.. And I shall post some of it here.
Enough for now, it's lunch time and I have some leftover Chicken Curry waiting for me.
PS: Vox makes my Firefox crash. DeviantArt makes my Firefox crash. WTF is wrong?
